So long!....NOT! good Buy!

This past Saturday one of my favourite ppl at work, worked there last shift. Are retail manager at the Rainforest has excepted a new assistant manager position at a retail store at the casino. Nicole is one of this little pixies favourite work buddies. Over the past 3 years Nicole has become one of my trusted friends! :)
Nicole has given me some GREAT advice over the years, & we have shared some GREAT laughs as well as some tears! lol
Nicole is a GREAT person & she will b missed by all! I know I speak for everyone we work with when I say GOOD LUCK Nicole! We WISH U ALL THE BEST!!!! & keep in touch!

Love u Hun!

Ciao!!

Tink~

CHANGE

A year ago I went to go see Dane Cook in Toronto with a few friends.
F.Y.I. AMAZINGLY FUNNY!!!
On the way home I got a ph call from who other then, Mr. Handsome.

Hello?
Hi! What r u doing?
Driving home from t.o.
Oh Yeah! How was Dane?
GREAT!!!
What r u guys doin now? Y don't u come by for a drink?
OK!!!

That night & the 3 days that followed where some of the best times in r whole relationship..
We hung out with some friends & family...& had some really great alone time.
We went out for a family bday @ the bar, & after spent hours drivin around till the sun came up& talking about r love for each other.. Mr. Handsome really opened up that weekend. It was great!! Until this little pixie had to go back to work in the Rainforest.

On Tuesday night I got a call from Mr. Handsome. He was calling to tell me that he was going out for a bit to go talk with a friend, & that he would call me when he got home. & to still stop by in the morning.
NO CALL! & the next morning b4 I went to my appointment I stopped by his house only to find him not there.
So I left, went to my appointment, & then went back.

When I returned he was there. We talked about the night b4 & what had happened.
Are conversation ended with Mr. Handsome telling me that I had nothing to worry about!!!
He loved me & wanted to b with me & only me!!! YEAH!
The rest of the week went on as normal. Work. Work. & more Work

Until Friday when we went out for another family bday.
The same man who 2 days earlier had kept telling me that I had nothing to worry about & that I was the only girl for him, started yelling @ me in the middle of the bar for no reason.

This little pixie never thought that the year that would follow that amazing weekend that started in T.O. would bring SO MANY CHANGES!!!!

Ciao!!

Tink~

Trick? or Treat?

As far back as this little pixie can remember, I have LOVED Halloween!
Having said that, let me not fool you! It use to scare the crap out of me.
However, who doesn't love to dress up & become someone else? Over the past 3 months I wish I really could of become someone else. And go around & get lots of candy!

When I was little I dressed up as everything from a playing card to a French Maid. The French Maid was my all time favourite costume! I wore it year after year until it didn't fit me anymore. All to fly door to door to get more then enuf, candy from my neighbours.

I think this old tradition is one of the reasons I, Tink
1: Like to dress up! Lies
2:LOVE candy!

I really believe that Halloween is one the the reasons that this pixie's favorite food is CANDY!
I could eat it every day, all day!
& if u promise not to tell, I will let you in on a little secret, my pixie dust?.....

Really SUGAR!!!!

I also think that this holiday is one of the many reasons why this little pixie is a glutton! I wanted candy! More candy then my little wings would allow me to fly home with. I wanted ALL of the candy! & I wanted to eat it as fast as I could!

So on the big day October 31 2008 I wounder if all those Treats were just 1 big Trick on this little pixie...
A night full of fun dress up & candy!?! or a life sentence????

As a last note I would like to wish my Mom's 2 brothers who were born on the same day different year A Happy Halloween Birthday!

Ciao!!

Tink~

Hittin the BIG time!

So I just wanna take a few min. to let everyone know that this little pixie's new movie comes out this Tuesday October 28th.

Yes that's right!...for the first time EVER! I Tinkerbell...will have my very own full length movie out!....
THAT RIGHT!!!! So EVERYONE please go fly out & pick up a copy!

Also since I have you here!...

I would like EVERYONE to please keep my bestest girls Nana in your thoughts & prayers!!!
She is a VERY special women, who is going thru a rough time!....
GET BETTER SOON NANA! DAG & I LOVE YOU!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo

C you both this weekend!

Ciao!!

Tink~

WHAT IF????

What if? DAG never talk me into going?....
What if? You NEVER stole me heart?....
What if? I NEVER found my Atlantis?....
What if? I NEVER took you back that cold dark night?....
What if? I NEVER chose to forgive & forget?....

Would we ever of made it as far as we did?....
Would I still feel all this pain & hurt?....
I gave you everything I had!....
What did you give?....
Love?, lies?, unfaithfulness?, sadness?, happiness?, good times?, Love!....
How did we get to where we r today?....
4 years latter life is darker then it was before!....
Before you, I cried EVERYDAY!....
Funny thing is, Is that now I cry everyday, again!....

What if? I didn't let you get away with EVERYTHING?....
What if? 2008 didn't start out the way it did?....
What if? I NEVER! had lost it?....
What if? I had stood up to you?....
What if? You cried EVER night instead of me?....

Would we still b talking?....
Would you still love me like you use to?....
Would the pain still b unbearable?....
Would you be acting like an adult?....
Would I be able to say "Happy 4th anniversary!"
Would I not be wondering "What If?"

Happy Would Be!!!

Ciao!!

Tink~

SUGARLAND!!!!

Tuesday night;
I called doubleagentgirl @ home while I was @ work. Just as we were about to get off the phone, DAG says " oh by the way my dad entered me into a contest to win sugarland tix to a privet concert for 2morrow!" WHAT? REALLY? NICE!

"Yeah" says DAG so keep ur fingers crossed & b prepared to come up to London early! in the morning & NOT! go to work tomorrow.

"OK! Of coarse! I will b up in a heart beet!"
So when I got off the ph I said to my co worker Nicki. "Keep ur fingers crossed for me so that I can go see my FAVORITE group tomorrow!"

Wednesday morning;
Sometime between 8 & 8:30am my house ph rings & I know just who it is
But just my luck my ph wont turn on. & then my cell phone rings & that thing is a piece of CRAP!

So then I call DAG back on her cell.

"GET UP HERE!!!! WERE GOING TO SUGARLAND!!!! I WON! bus leave @ 4pm!"

I Tink! was speechless! I didn't know what to say I was SOOO excited! I was finally going to see Jennifer Nettles & Kristian Bush!

So I flew in the shower. Did my hair. Got gas & was on my way up to London by 9:15am. I think it was my fastest trip yet! LOL The whole time thinking about what shirt I would wear! LOL

Finally in London around 11am. Walked in doubleagentgirl's apartment & said "WE ARE GOING TO SUGARLAND, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! IM SOOO EXCITED!" Her answer " I told you one way or another we would see them!"DAG has been telling me for about a year now that we would get to see Sugarland together, one day! & I didn't believe her! SHE WAS RIGHT!

So after deciding on a shirt. Getting Starbucks & telling the drive thru girl about all the excitement even if she wouldn't believe us! DAG & I went & wasted some more time @ White Oaks Mall. B4 we had to catch the bus with the other 46 ppl going to see SUGARLAND!!

I don't even want to talk about the bus ride....ppl SUCK The ppl behind us were SO loud! & didn't think I was old enuf to get into a 19+ event! After our first stop DAG & I moved seats!

"There it is the Orange Lounge!" "YES! Were here!"
When we got off the bus we had to wait in line for about 10 min b4 we could get in....DAG & I were both! asked for id b4 we were let in! So once in we filled up the stars, to the super cute theater. Got a drink. & found a spot! Right beside a cute boy named Grayden, who offered to take a pic of the agent & I!

I couldn't believe that in 30min I would see Sugarland !!!When all of a sudden, out come Amanda Wilkinson How exciting I didn't know that she was going to b the host for the event? But it was a GREAT surprise! I have been a fan of the Wilkinson's since the beginning of there career. Amanda even sang a bit to by some time for Surgarland! & then it was time!!!

Out came Jennifer & Kristian. "OMG!!!! THERE THEY ARE! I THINK I'M GOING TO FAINT!" I was crying & shaking!

Jennifer's voice was a little? gone! But when she sang she sounded GREAT! I'm not sure that I could tell you all the songs that Sugarland sang or the questions that they were asked during the Q & A! Because I was mesmerized & in aw that Sugarland was b4 me! Seeing them had meant a lot to me for a long time, there songs have been there for me thru some tough times! ...I there I was @ a Sugarland concert with my best friend! Even as I write this now I am brought to tears!

After the Q & A. Jennifer & Kristian came off the stage to shake hands. DAG said to me " well go take ur CD up there!" I was like "no they wont sign it!" But DAG talked me into it! & good thing she did AS I pushed my way thru all the ppl...saying " Sorry I JUST LITTLE! Can I Just get up their 4 a min? I just wanna c!" I made my way to the front of the crowd! Where Jennifer Nettles SIGNED MY CD!!!! YEAH!!!! It was AWESOME!!!! THANKS DAG 4 pushing me! lol I was soo happy!

I remember hearing doubleagentgirls voice saying "just enjoy the moment!" BUT I'M NOT SURE THAT DAG REALLY KNOWS JUST HOW MUCH THAT MOMENT MEANT TO ME!!!! Watching & listening Sugarland perform, everything that has happened over the last 4 years just came over me & filled me up!

I am soo VERY GREATFULL 4 DAG who took me with her to see Sugarland . She has fulfilled a dream of this little pixie's & I'm not even sure that Aaron Pritchett was enuf to pay her back!

Luv you bunches DAG! THANK so much!

Ciao!!

Tink~

My Special Day

Hey all! DAG

So September has always been an emotional month for this little pixie. When I was little it was because I had to go back to school. I hated school! September is also the month my parents got married 35 years ago . And it is also the month of my fathers birthday.

September is also the month in which I became a member of my family.

I Tinkerbell, am adopted!

On May 29 I was born to teenage parents. Who were too young to take care of themselves let a lone a little baby like me. A little baby who was born 4 months yearly, and with a fare amount of medical problems. I can see how it would b overwhelming
After spending some time @ Mc Master hospital, I was put in2 a foster home.

Until it happened.

On September 14th I was adopted by my parents. I was there first child. Two years latter I became a big sister. When my little sister was adopted to.
As long as I can remember September 14th has been refereed to as my "special day." I guess its like another birthday. Growing up we always got cards & presents on our "special days".
It has always been a big deal. But I think my favourite thing about my special day when I was growing up was that we always went to the Avondale Dairy Bar for Ice Cream. YUMMY

Although the 14th is filled with lots of GREAT! memories. It is often filled with sadness.
Sometimes I feel like I don't belong in the family I am in. I always wounder what life would of been like had my biological parents kept me. Who would I be? Where would I live? Would I have any siblings? Would DoubleAgentGirl still b my best friend? Would I have ever met Mr. Wilcox And known What true love is?
Do my biological parents ever think about me or wonder where I am and how I'm doing? Have they ever tried to find me? Do they wish I would try & find them? Was it hard 4 them? Om my birthday do I cross there mind? or am I just forgotten?

Should I try to find my biological parents? What would I get out of that? Rejection? Sadness? Hurt? Pain? Death? Love? A family that wants me back? or A family that just wants me to go away?

Where do I belong? Mr.Wilcox always made me feel like i was were I was suppose to b. But now I'm really not to sure! Will finding some ppl I don't even know me make me feel better about myself? NO! Will learning me medical history make me feel better about myself? Maybe!

I am sooo VERY GRATEFUL for the life that I have been given! I love my family! And that's all I really need, LOVE!!

Tink~